Better than I deserve


I have not suffered nearly enough
For the crime that I have done.
- if you're listening, The Choir

Our pastor "recommended" that we answer the question "How have things been going?" with the reply "Better than I deserve." He said that we would get a few quizzical looks if this were our response. Even among the redeemed.

The quote above sums it up for me. The fact is that I have not suffered nearly enough for the crime that I've done. And the prone position I retain as I lean on His Grace minute by minute rails against the very core of my humanness. The debt I have can never be repaid. The love I have (Love I have?) cannot be expressed.

If You're listening, Lord, I love You. Please teach me what that means.

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