I can't choose
I have a couple of Spiritual Gifts that are operating in my life. My primary gift is teaching and my secondary gift is mercy. What is interesting is that I did not choose the gifts (they were given to me) and I cannot choose how to exercise them in the church (that is chosen for me). For one reason or another God had it so that I was passed over for numerous opportunities to teach adults for an extended period of time. In my flesh I felt really badly about that and all of the usual questions came into my mind that sprang from my being self-absorbed: Am I not good enough? Did I say something wrong? Did people complain about me? and on and on they went. And I almost missed one of the more exciting things that has happened to me in the ministries God has called me to - the opportunity to teach children in a dynamic, high-energy setting with people that have extraordinary talent.
The exercise of Spiritual Gifts strengthens the church (1 Corinthians 12:7). I now know that God moves people into places in His church where there gifts will strengthen it. I am going to try to not have a long face or become self-absorbed when I do not get to exercise my giftedness in a particular way. The only thing I can do is sit back and marvel that He uses me at all in the loves of people that He loves very dearly.