This weekend was so much different

This weekend was so much different for me as I didn't have a looming trip in the back of my mind. I know that it probably shouldn't have been different, but I still have an issue with living in the here and now and I let the future impact way too much of my feelings and activities. Will I ever get to the point where my past and the anticipation of the future will never encroach on where I am at the present moment? I hope I do and I know that's the standard I need to hold myself to. But boy is it hard. Too hard at times.

So there I was Saturday and (more so) Sunday reveling in the experience of the days without a care in the world it seemed. I had such a great time with my family that I thought my heart would burst out of my chest. There were the little things here and there that would try to pull my down from my bliss but I wouldn't let them. It seemed like there was nothing that could have stopped the way I felt. Not one thing.

Yet I now I know there was something that could have done it. At least I am wiser for the next time. I hope I'm wiser for the next time.

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